Since the start of last month, I’ve been thinking of where I want my art, life, and future is going to go in the next couple of years… And honestly? I just now realized I need to do something about my life! I need to make the change I’m dreaming about every night before I fall asleep…
So the start of next year and the beginning of this month (of December!), I’m going to start the change I want to see. I want to go freelance, even if it’s just a part-time job to my current job. I want to become more independent. I want to start driving again. I want to move out, and I want to feel like the person I want to be.
I’m going to start prepping myself into becoming who I want to be.
I want to go freelance, so I’ll start pushing my commissions more. I’ll make a better Commission Sheet, share it everywhere and update it every week if I have too. I’ll start streaming my art weekly, or even twice a month! I’ll make sure I’m drawing and finishing a drawing more and more often than I already am… I’ll make sure I get myself more known out there on the vast land of the internet.
I’ll start driving next year, I’ll save up for a car of my own and make it my car and my responsibility and my pride and joy. I’m going to stop getting scared of the road, stop letting my paranoid mind cause me to panic behind the wheel of that specific corner… I’m going to try more and more.
The moving out part is going to be more hard, but I’m certain I can do it. Me and my friend, Abel, are planning on being roomamtes when we move out. Sure, things will be tight – and naturally we won’t be able to afford everything we want. If my calculations are correct, if me and Abel pay everything on time, we’ll have around 125$ (ish) to “free spend”. Knowing me, I’ll start saving my part of the 125$ for art supplies and misc.RT stuff if emergences are taken into account…
Gosh, I honestly can’t wait to start everything out. I’m even willing to pick up more shifts at my work – I’m willing to work 16 hour shifts and work on my possible/future commissions/art for 2 – 3 hours after working just to make things work.
I really, really hope life will let me do this. I really, really hope I’ll be able to do this. I’m capability to do this. I know I can.